Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I'm procrastinating

So i have 4 more hours til i can go to sleep, and i SHOULD be working on a power point for a noon conference talk that i have to give in about two weeks. Instead i am procrastinating, going over in my head why i should continue this blog.

why blog? why share your feelings with the public? why air your dirty laundry in public? and why would anyone care?

i have to say that i kept a FABULOUS blog when i was on myspace. it followed my journey in med school, dealing with my 3rd and 4th year rotations, my drama with friends and boys, and even chronicled my meeting of berry and documented my love that grew so quickly. it was my masterpiece. i could have published it as a small novel. but it vanished when i closed my myspace account.

fast forward 3 years. a lot has changed, including me! and yet i have a desire to blog again. part of me thinks it has a lot to do with my education background. i was a history major at duke and spent my 4 years writing A LOT of papers and even subjected myself to writing a 130+ page thesis my senior year. i loved it! my career now doesn't allow me for much writing. my tests are multiple choice, my notes are now written by residents, and i barely pick up a pen to write anymore. i love to write. i just do.
another reason is that i am an open person. i don't hold back. i don't keep quiet. i am an open book....and people tend to think i overshare but it is just the way i am. it is just my personality. i wasn't always like this- growing up i was a bit of a nerd, very quiet, and always let people overshadow me. i never wanted to change that, it just happened. and i think it happened because of my pregnancy. people talked about me, a lot. and instead of letting them talk and say what they wanted (truth or not), i decided to make sure they KNEW the truth.
and so it began:
"i got pregnant at 17."
"i didn't pass Step 1 in med school."
"i had an eating disorder."

i share. i like to write. and therefore, i blog. read it, don't read it. contribute to it, don't contribute to it. it won't change me. and i am ok with that. :)

Sunday, September 26, 2010

"sunday gun-day"

Everyone knows that usually sunday is known as "sunday fun-day" but today i had named the day "sunday gun-day."

The reason for this is because Camille, Mary, and I were signed up for a women's gun shooting class, where we learned to shoot a gun. The class was scheduled from 1-5 pm today (with lunch being served) and was in Ridgeville, SC (about 45 minutes away from my house).
Now, i have to say that this class was something that i was NOT looking forward to. For starters, i am still on night float and am "working" tonight and had to be at work at 5 pm, which didn't really allow me for time with the family and to get ready for work today. I also wanted a relaxing sunday. I wanted bottomless mimosas and brunch with the hubby . I wanted to go to Target and wanted to take taylor to Halloween Express (one of my favorite stores too). I just wanted some relaxing time.

Not that gun shooting is relaxing- i honestly don't know if it is or not. I do know that it makes me nervous just thinking about shooting a gun. Berry wants me to learn in order to protect the family but let's just face it....i am not that coordinated and am pretty sure i would end up shooting myself rather than an intruder. ALSO, growing up i always heard stories about kids finding their parent's guns and shooting themselves or their siblings by accident. NO THANK YOU.

Anyway, i digress. So Camille, Mary, and I piled into the car and drove 45 min down highway 61 to the gun club. Mary and i chatted about work, boys, and life, while Camille napped in the back. Just when i thought we couldn't go any further, we found the turnoff to the gun club. However, to our surprise, when we turned onto the street that the gun club was on, we ran into this:

We were stuck. Couldn't get to the gun range. We called them twice, left messages TWICE, and finally decided there was nothing we could do but give up. We were already 45 minutes late because we tried to find alternate routes....we even used the Garmin! Defeated, we turned around and headed home....another 45 minute drive back. This time in rain.

We do plan to go back and take this class in the future. Hopefully the bridge will be fixed by then.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Televison makes being a doctor look fabulous.

Taylor is writing this :) just in case you got confused.
Television can make ANYTHING look awesome. Even being a doctor. You know, while watching Greys Anatomy I always think about being a doctor and that it would be so much fun and blah blah blah. But then i remember what my mom had to go through. Lots of studying, late nights, debt. ick. not something i want to be consumed into. I guess you have to have a lot of heart and soul into being a doctor if you are seriously willing to decidcate your life (basically soul) to your job... Not that it's a bad thing, i mean if you like it then go for it.
Greys Anatomy is on tonight for the first time in the season. I still get shivers thinking about the season finale. BUT this season is supposed to be AWESOME and mom is letting me stay up til 10 (i usually go to bed at 9:30) just to watch Greys Anatomy.
But still, I can't wait. YAY! YAY! YAY! YAY!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

See? Didn't i tell you that Ti HATES me leaving in the middle of the night?
He is miserable!

And of course i have to admit that i don't like working night either. It is quite lonely and i miss hanging with the family and having regular hours.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

1st blog post

In an effort to stay off of the "social networks," I decided to start writing on the family blog.

This blog was initially started in the Spring 2010 when Berry and I were talking about expanding our family and we were going to have a blog where family, friends, and the randoms that happen upon it, can see our journey. Unfortunately we learned that our plans were not going to happen right then. I got offered a fellowship position at MUSC in Pulmonary/Critical Care to start the day after finishing residency and poof- the baby plans were history. It wasn't SUCH a bad thing- i had wanted to be a pulmonary fellow...i just didn't know it was going to happen so soon.

So now i am 3 months in to my fellowship and working nights- hence my late night posts. Berry had a slight job change and is now teaching at Trident Technical College AND College of Charleston. And Taylor is in 8th grade and is a "typical" teenager with angst, drama, and a passion for shopping.

Of course i can't forget my babies- Tiberius is sleeping near my feet. He hates my night float schedule. One of the reasons why i love Ti is that he is a creature of habit, like myself. On normal days, he likes to wake up early with me, he sleeps most of the day, and then he goes to bed with me around 9:30 pm. This happens pretty much every day. Since i am now nocturnal, Ti HATES that i am up all night- his poor eyes are even more red and droopy than usual and he gives Berry the look that says "where is mommy? i want to go to bed." Ellie is oblivious to it all. She sleeps peacefully in Taylor's room each night- the snuggle bugs would want it no other way.

So this is our first blog post. I am going to encourage Berry and Taylor to blog when they can- something the family can do together! Besides, i am sure our readers are going to get tired of just me!

Anywhoo- good morning to all!